Synopsis:
Fighting
for redemption . . .
I've
lived most of my life in darkness, beneath the shadows of secrets and
addictions. The last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt the only girl I'd ever
loved—the one who brought me into the light. In my entire life I'd made one
promise—a promise I'd intended to keep. I've broken that promise and now I have
to live with the fallout. Dixie Lark hates me, and I have to tell her that I
love her. I also have to tell her a truth that might destroy us forever.
Can
she love me, even if she can't forgive me?
Learning
to move on . . .
Gavin
Garrison broke his promise to my brother and he broke my heart in the process.I
may never love anyone the way I've loved him, but at least I won't spend my
life wondering "what if." We had our one night and he walked away.
I'm beginning to move on, but my brother's wedding and a battle of the bands
are about to throw us together again.
Our band is
getting a second chance, but I don't know if I can give him one. How do you
hand your heart back to the person who set it on fire once already?
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His mouth is so close, he’s so close. He seems taller or something, and even though I know the likelihood of that is ridiculous, I don’t remember ever feeling so very aware of his presence. Or maybe I just blocked it all out. But here, now, in the room with him, everything is coming back.
All of it.
Every single second we spent connected on a physical level. His mouth on me, his lips, his tongue, his body inside of mine.
“You’re good at this,” I say, barely able to get my voice to go above a whisper.
“I’ve had a lot of practice.”
I don’t know if he means with first aid, which is likely since he’s had to perform CPR on his mom more times than I can count, or seduction, which I also happen to know he’s well versed in. Either way, I am in danger of losing my grip on my ability to remain up- right.
It’s as if my brain has been doing me a favor for the past few months, allowing me to focus on being pissed at him instead of . . . this. But clearly my brain has left the building and I am completely on my own. This is dangerous.
I am weak.
I want him.
I need him.
Screw it.
“There,” he says gently, lowering my dress back down over my
I want him.
I need him.
Screw it.
“There,” he says gently, lowering my dress back down over my
thighs. “That might help a little but you should still—”
My mouth captures his midsentence. His lips are slightly moist and even fuller than I remembered. I tense and a dull ache hits hard as my heart drops a few inches in preparation of being rejected. Much to my surprise, Gavin doesn’t stop me. He doesn’t reject me. He doesn’t spew some bull about my brother or our friendship or seeing anyone else or anything.
My mouth captures his midsentence. His lips are slightly moist and even fuller than I remembered. I tense and a dull ache hits hard as my heart drops a few inches in preparation of being rejected. Much to my surprise, Gavin doesn’t stop me. He doesn’t reject me. He doesn’t spew some bull about my brother or our friendship or seeing anyone else or anything.
He only makes one sound—a soft, pained groan. His hands grip the skin just beneath my ass and he lifts me onto the counter. The dress is tight but I manage to part my thighs far enough to accom- modate his broad figure between them.
My fingers press into his back, urging him closer even though it’s not exactly possible. I try to catch his tongue but he’s sweeping it deeply inside, then pulling back to suck on my lips. A muffled moan escapes my mouth and slides into his.
“You taste like whiskey, Bluebird.” He chuckles lightly, then cuts off any chance I had of verbalizing a response by slipping his fingers between my legs and into the waistband of my panties.
When I read Leaving Amarillo, I knew that Gav had some history. Glimpses of it were there for me to see and it was frustrating that he couldn't seem to choose the light instead of the darkness of his past. I wanted so much for his story to come out and their happy to happen.
Then Loving Dallas came next. Frankly, I wasn't happy. I wanted Dixie and Gavin to get their story finished. But I can honestly say that after reading Missing Dixie, I get it. Time needed to happen. Dallas needed to work through some things and get his happy. But mostly, Dixie needed to meet Liam. Don't worry, he's not a love interest. He's a sweet little seven year old boy that is tangled in their story and helps them sort things out.
I very much wanted to hug and slap Gavin in equal measures through most of this book. All I can say is that I love him and he frustrates me. Open your mouth Gavin and tell her the truth. That's what I wanted. But it's possible that Dixie wasn't quite ready to hear it until she did. And that was brilliance by the author even if it had me peeking ahead.
This is, at times, a difficult and emotional story to read but it fits the series well. It's also clear how much these two love each other as they try to resist each other but sometime give in. It's broken, just like it's characters. But it lets the light shine through. (I'm paraphrasing the book which was quoting Hemingway.) I loved it. It's satisfying. It's messy. It's real.
If you've read the first two, you want this one for sure. If you haven't read this series, you should. It's a great mix of band and life drama topped with a side of sexy.
Then Loving Dallas came next. Frankly, I wasn't happy. I wanted Dixie and Gavin to get their story finished. But I can honestly say that after reading Missing Dixie, I get it. Time needed to happen. Dallas needed to work through some things and get his happy. But mostly, Dixie needed to meet Liam. Don't worry, he's not a love interest. He's a sweet little seven year old boy that is tangled in their story and helps them sort things out.
I very much wanted to hug and slap Gavin in equal measures through most of this book. All I can say is that I love him and he frustrates me. Open your mouth Gavin and tell her the truth. That's what I wanted. But it's possible that Dixie wasn't quite ready to hear it until she did. And that was brilliance by the author even if it had me peeking ahead.
This is, at times, a difficult and emotional story to read but it fits the series well. It's also clear how much these two love each other as they try to resist each other but sometime give in. It's broken, just like it's characters. But it lets the light shine through. (I'm paraphrasing the book which was quoting Hemingway.) I loved it. It's satisfying. It's messy. It's real.
If you've read the first two, you want this one for sure. If you haven't read this series, you should. It's a great mix of band and life drama topped with a side of sexy.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Caisey Quinn lives in
Nashville, Tennessee and is the bestselling author of the Kylie Ryans series
and several other New Adult Romance titles. Her Neon Dreams series about a
country rock crossover band paying their dues in life and in love on their
rocky road to fame is now available from Avon/William Morrow.
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NOTE FROM CAISEY QUINN
When I look back on the year it took to
write this series, it feels like a blur. A beautiful, bright, neon lit blur. I
have to confess that I didn’t know exactly how the Neon Dreams series would end
when I began writing it. I knew the band would finally make it big. I knew that
they would never want to share their backstory but that it would be a story
worth telling. What I didn’t know was how real their hearts and souls would
become to me. While Liam may not be Dixie and Gavin’s biological son, I did
learn this year that family truly does come in the form of people who love and
support you in both the best and worst of times and that it’s not always
comprised of people who are related by blood or marriage. Liam was born from
that discovery.
When Dallas went on the road and Dixie
stayed behind, some people were outright angry. I was. At both of them. I was
confused about why this felt right. I didn’t know Liam existed yet. I didn’t
know he was going to be wandering by an old house in the backside of Amarillo
alone and afraid. I didn’t realize that Dixie had to be there giving piano
lessons to other kiddos so that Liam would hear and be drawn to her.
Everyone was exactly where they needed
to be—even when I hadn’t yet realized it.
So my first big thank you is for you,
for those of you who read this series and allowed me to figure it out as I
went. For each of you who leaves a review somewhere—anywhere—and tells a friend
to read it, thank you times two. Times ten. Times infinity, as my daughter
says.
My second thank you is to my editor,
Amanda, who didn’t tell me to take a hike when Liam entered the picture and it
meant a rewrite of the second half of the book and that I wouldn’t make my initial
deadline. I love you. I thank God for you, for your always having my back and
for allowing me to write the story I believed in, the way that I needed to
write it.
Thank you to my agent, Kevan, for also
not dropping the crazy lady who said “So . . . my life is a mess and I need
this book to go a different way and I am going to hunker down into the bat cave
until I get it right.” Promise not to do that again . . . at least not on
purpose.
To the members of CQ’s Road Crew and
the Backwoods Belles, you ladies have been my family this year. You have been
my light in the darkness, pulling me out of one of the toughest and most devastating
situations I’ve ever been in. I literally don’t know if I could do my job
without your unconditional love and support. Scratch that. I couldn’t. I know I
couldn’t. Same goes for the bloggers who share, review, post, and rant and rave
about all the book things. I love y’all. To the moon and back and around again.
To the amazing authors I am blessed to
call colleagues and friends, thank you. I don’t know what I did to deserve you,
to even get to know you much less read your work and have my books read and
loved on by you, but I’m glad I did it—whatever it was!
Lastly, to anyone who supports music
and musicians in general, thank you for existing. Music matters. The epilogue
from Liam is very much nonfiction in my world, and I have someone I love dearly
that I believe was saved by music. You know that feeling you get when you hear
that song—that one that causes you to step off the treadmill or pull the car
over or freeze in place and hold your breath and strain to hear because it
reaches that deep, dark, hidden place where your secrets dwell—it’s a real,
tangible thing, that feeling. It connects us—especially when we are positive no
one else in the entire world could possibly understand what we’re going
through. And let’s face it, life is better with a soundtrack.
Thank you to every single person who
had a hand in helping this series about a small-town ragtag band become more
than I ever dreamed it could be.
Thank you for making my dreams come
true.
This series sounds so good but it really sounds like it is going to break my heart! Definitely a series for my TBR. Great review!
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